In a room full of people

She told you to be happy,
She wants you to be happy.
And you made a promise that you'll be happy.
What now..?
Crying until you feel like you can choke on your tears.
Having that pain in your chest that you try so hard to get rid of but it still exist.
Curling into a ball and telling yourself you'll be okay only to cry even harder.


Because what? 
"What did I do? Why did they left me? I.. I can change."
"I dont understand.."
But I couldnt get use to being alone.
I trusted them. 
I loved them.
I thought we would be there till.. forever..
Forever? What forever?
You all said forever but you betrayed and left me.
The irony. 
I longed so much for someone to be there again.
Then again, I looked around me and felt out of place.
Everyone is taken.
A best friend of my own..?
I don't have one.. 
Much as I want to give them my all, no one is quite willing to accept it. 
Then what can I do? 
What can I do but to be there invisible... 
In a room full of people.